Tickled

Sometimes I just have to wonder if God doesn’t get tickled watching me from time to time.   I have to think that He hears my prayers for help and then watches me get busy trying to fix the problems I just prayed about and then just chuckles at me.  It’s not that I don’t believe in God’s power or promise’s it’s just that I seem unable to grasp that they apply to me ALL the time.  And so, sometimes I think He can’t help but just laugh out loud at my silliness.  This thought came to me this week as I realized that I must be the queen of ridiculousness.  That’s right; I am totally guilty of praying and then getting busy trying to fix things.   (I mean God is really busy, right?  He might not have time to get to me right away!)  I have spent the last several months running in circles and wondering how I should handle this situation or what will I do if that happens?  Ummm….hello, didn’t I just hand that over to God?  Didn’t I just pray that His will be done?  Then there is absolutely no point in going over and over the same problem in my head trying to come up with another solution because no matter what happens He is still in control.  And once again that fact hit me like a ton of bricks this morning.  He is in control.  You’d think by now I would have learned that.  You’d think I’d quit trying to do His job for Him, because when I do the results are just disastrous.  It’s like an amateur trying to paint a Monet.  And so, still I say He must shake His head and laugh at my sweet but misguided efforts.  Maybe it’s like when one of my children tries to wear my shoes, they can put them on, and they may even get a few steps, but eventually they’re going to need my help walking or else they’re just going to fall flat on their face.   And I’m just the same way.  I’m so busy trying to fill shoes that I’m just not made to fill that I keep missing what He’s trying to say.  I keep missing what I’m supposed to be doing.   So today He reminded me and now I’m reminding you…….” seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.  Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own.”  Matthew 6:33-34